No need for possessions

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It wasn’t everyday I went out for an extravagant lunch, but on
this day I went with a group from my department to lift morale, and Sean came,
too.  Despite the call for cheer,
everyone clock watched.  Everyone ordered
fast and ate quickly in time to get back to work within the allocated hour but
Sean and I moved slowly over our meals and conversation.  One by one my colleagues left and by the time
they’d all gone, Sean and I were left alone.
‘How about it?’ Sean said.  His eyes raised, his lips moist.
I thrilled at the thought of such
unspeakable behaviour, the stuff of novels, and fell in.  We booked a room in a hotel over the road
from the shrine.  I even paid the
bill.  Why should the man always pay for
the woman? I reasoned.
‘Possessions,’ Sean told me, ‘weigh
you down.  It’s better to live with
little more than the clothes in your suitcase.’
 
Sean and his partner lived like this he told me as we peeled off our
clothes and I wondered what she might have thought about my taking possession
of her man on this crisp autumn day near the shrine on St Kilda Road where the
ghosts of soldiers long dead once gathered. 
It was a small room in a low cost
hotel with only a view of the sides of office buildings but the sheets were
crisp and clean and privacy was guaranteed. 
He bedded me without ceremony.  In those days I operated on remote control
much of the time, a woman disappointed in her relationships, and in her chosen
career as a social worker; a woman who had wanted to help people but found
herself in need of help instead.  I did
not know this at the time. At the time I thought only of how wicked I had
become and what excuses I could offer back at work.
Nina, the deputy social worker,
called me into her office the next day, not long after I had arrived, a little
less bold than the day before when I made the decision to leave a message with
the secretary to say I’d fallen ill after lunch and would not be in for the
rest of the day.
‘You can’t do things like that,’ Nina
said.  She did not buy the line I had
been ill the day before.  She’d been with
us at lunch.  She’d seen me stay behind
with Sean.  He also failed to return to
work, but she was too polite to put two and two together, other than to tell me,
it must not happen again. 
Within a week, I resigned my job at
the hospital.  Not because of Nina or
Sean or that stolen afternoon but because I could no longer tolerate the idea
of being a handmaiden to the doctors who saw social workers as their secretarial
assistants in matters of health benefits and first port of call on where to go after
discharge when a person is too old or frail to go home alone.  This was not what I had studied for.
As for Sean, I never saw him again,
but his name popped up ten years later when a Commonwealth policeman knocked on
my door. 
‘Do you know a Sean McCloud?’ he
asked.  I nodded my head and he told me
the story.  For the several years now, they
had been investigating a certain Peter Hill, alias Sean McCloud, wanted by the
Canadian police for extortion.  Interpol
were on the lookout and they had contacted Sean’s ex-colleagues. 
‘Did you know he was not a qualified social
worker?’ the policeman asked.  I shook my
head.  
Sean was an imposter who took on
professional disguises wherever he travelled as a way of funding his life style,
the policeman told me.  He lived off the
largesse of others.  He took possession
of their possessions and left them wondering.
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5 Comments on No need for possessions

  1. PhilipH
    February 28, 2015 at 12:24 pm (3 years ago)

    Beautifully written. Exquisite and engaging too.

    In summary, one has to ask: "Ever been had?"

    Loved it. Super story, well told.

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  2. Jim Murdoch
    February 28, 2015 at 1:48 pm (3 years ago)

    I have wondered, not often but occasionally, about the nature of possession. We talk about people being tied to their possessions and more and more we’re learning about hoarders who can’t bear to part with anything. I’m not a materialist. Things have a place in my life but they’re mainly a means to an end. Experiences are the true goal. This laptop allows me to experience so many things but it’s simply the latest in a long line of computers and it won’t be my last. I have no emotional attachment to this case and its contents. The contents of my shelves in my office are another matter but increasingly I find myself with books and music that exist inside the most anonymous of black boxes sitting on the floor beside me. Try as I might I find I don’t care for them like I care for my paperbacks and CDs. Parting company with some of them would be painful.

    Once a thing becomes mine—once I take ownership of it (always hated that expression)—I’m not good at sharing. Buy your own damn book. I wasn’t always like that. Over the years I’ve learned that not everyone knows that the word ‘borrow’ actually means. It means you return the item in the condition you received it and in a timely fashion. And ‘timely’ does not mean any ol’ time or before the end of time. I probably could make a list of all the people who’ve ‘borrowed’ things from me over the years and never returned them. I definitely hold grudges.

    Pretending to be something you’re not. I’m sure we’ve all done that at some time in our lives. We pretend to be more knowledgeable than we really are, more experienced, more grown-up. And it’s so easily done. We exaggerate or only tell half the story. Whatever works. Whatever helps us fit in and be accepted or to get the job. I had a boss once who told the most outrageous lies: he was (he claimed) a former member of the SAS, was a proof-reader for Penguin Books, has an E-Type Jaguar in pieces in his bedroom (which was especially funny because he drove a clunker), was once blown off a cliff by a strong gust of wind and then was blown back on again, had a tankful of piranhas at home (actually I think it was in the bedroom with the jag) and there was other stuff too. One day someone in the group picked up an extension and heard him chatting up the speaking clock. Pat Simmons was still the voice of TIM then. I think it would’ve been odder still had it been a male recording he was flirting with but he was only doing it for attention; Christ knows what he’d told us about his wife but I’d lay bets she was a beauty queen. Basically it didn’t matter what subject you raised with the guy, he’d done it first or he had a bigger and/or better one than yours.

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  3. Jane and Lance Hattatt
    February 28, 2015 at 2:58 pm (3 years ago)

    Hello Elizabeth,

    We are in love with Sean.

    At first mention of his name, we knew that we were smitten. A cad, a chameleon, a charlatan…….yes, perfectly delicious.

    We loved this……you had us hooked from the start.

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  4. Anthony Duce
    February 28, 2015 at 11:25 pm (3 years ago)

    Enjoyed the story and the sense of mischief without thought of possession getting in the way.

    Reply
  5. Louise Allan
    March 1, 2015 at 1:28 am (3 years ago)

    Wow! That's an amazing story, and beautifully written. I felt the temptation of the devil and how his offer was too good to refuse. Loved how you paid for the room and felt it was your choice at the time. I bet Sean had that already sussed! I'd try and get this published …

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