Naked on the page

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Montaigne shocked everyone when he
wrote about the size of his penis.  To his mind, it was small.  
Why, among the many thoughts I have encountered
today, does this one stay with me?
 There are other images in my head, too: diamonds from
the 1800s that are attached to springs so that when the wearer moves, they tremble,
shimmer and dazzle the eye, diamonds en
tremblant
I tried to have a conversation last
night with one of my daughters about a trend that’s come to my attention
whereby people post images of their so-called private bits to their
lovers. 
It’s not that new, my daughter
tells me.  It’s been around for ages.
Apparently, there is a new law that
forbids the transmission of such images without a person’s consent. 
Jennifer Wilson, on her wonderful
blog, No place for sheep, refers to revenge porn, the business of people taking
it out on others by circulating compromising images or photos of the
person against whom they want revenge.
A while ago I heard about a young woman in the armed forces who had sex with her boyfriend and unbeknown to her he had organised that the
proceedings be videoed and circulated to his friends.  
What’s behind this, I ask
myself.  Why do it?  And what is it like for the person so exposed? 
To have a photo of your labia
online so that the entire world can see, or a shot of your penis, why so shocking? 
There’s the stuff of exhibitionism,
the pleasure we get out of showing off our bodies and the sexual pleasure we get
from being on display. 
Then, there’s the opposite: the
peeping Tom effect.  The pleasure some might
get out of looking, looking in preference to being involved, or being seen. 
I used to think of this as a masculine
activity, the Peeping Tom, the flasher, but women can get in on the act,
too. 
Women whose bodies have been put on
display for centuries. 
When I was a little girl and asked
my mother why the bronze Atlas holding a globe of the world on his shoulders in
the framed print on the wall of her bedroom was naked, she told me, ‘The human
body is beautiful’. 
I had trouble believing her then.  In a strange way I still have trouble.  Bodies can be beautiful but they’re also
haunting and troubling and exciting and frightening and all these things rolled
into one.  Anything to do with body bits,
internal and external seems loaded.
The other day I talked to one of my
sisters about prolapses.  In my mind’s
eye the image that stays with me is the one that first popped in when I was
little. 
One day my mother told me about a
cousin in Holland who had suffered a prolapse on the dance floor.  This cannot be, I now know.  You do not suddenly suffer a prolapse.  I imagine they happen gradually, but when I
was little I saw it happen on the dance floor.
My mother’s cousin’s insides slip
out onto the polished wood floors like glistening red jewels en tremblant.  And my aunt is mortified.  She runs through the room to the toilets dragging
her jewels behind her. 
I have since heard that a
prolapse as described by my mother, the one that happened to her cousin, was of her
cervix.  
This reminds me of other bodily
malformations like hernias.  I’ve not
seen one of these either.  
Again the idea
that your insides slip out of their moorings and appear on the surface of your
skin, like a burst bladder, reminds me of pregnancies, late term when it was
easy to see the imprint of my baby’s foot on the surface of my skin, the round
dome of her head. 
I have dreams where my skin is translucent
and I can see inside my body to the unborn baby squashed inside.  And this can only take place when one is
naked.  Naked on the page.
There is a YouTube series doing the rounds where a woman is interviewed and during conversation the camera stays on
her as she speaks.  She perches on a
stool, against a brick wall backdrop in a well lit room and as the interviewer proceeds
through a series of questions about the woman and her life, her relationship to
herself and her body, the interviewer asks her to take off items of clothing,
one by one. 
By the end of the interview the
woman sits in her underwear.  We do not
see the interviewer. 
There is something strangely
non-sexual about this disrobing.  Something
that puts us in touch with the woman as a whole person, a woman with a body and
mind, not just a sexualised body.  At
least that’s how I experience it.  
A slow
disrobing rather like entering into a meaningful essay where the writer
gradually unfolds ideas, thoughts, images about himself/herself until in the end
we are pared back to basics and somehow have much more than just a naked body,
and not just any body. 
In the YouTube clip so far I have
only seen naked women, and not all of them with ideal bodies. 
There are young bodies and old
bodies and even physically disabled bodies. 
I’ve yet to see a dark skinned body or a fat body or a hairy body or an amputated
body but I imagine there is scope for these and many more. 
One essential ingredient is the
capacity to be articulate in the English language in this instance and a
preparedness to let it all show.    
And finally, I came across this quote
from Anne Patchett: 
‘Forgiveness. The ability to
forgive oneself. Stop here for a few breaths and think about this because it is
the key to making art … I grieve for my own lack of talent and intelligence.
Every. Single. Time. …. This grief of constantly having to face down our own
inadequacies is what keeps people from being writers. Forgiveness, therefore is
key. I can’t write the book I want to write, but I can and will write the book
I am capable of writing. Again and again throughout the course of my life I
will forgive myself.’

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3 Comments on Naked on the page

  1. Anthony Duce
    October 26, 2014 at 2:27 am (3 years ago)

    Enjoyed. So many similar thoughts.

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  2. PhilipH
    October 26, 2014 at 10:52 am (3 years ago)

    I absolutely LOVED that ending quote.

    There seems to be an increase in the: "If you've got it, flaunt it".

    Perhaps even those not over-endowed with bodily 'bits' are 'flaunting' them. Who knows? Who cares?

    To selfie, or not to selfie – aye, there's the rub. ;-}

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  3. Jim Murdoch
    October 26, 2014 at 12:00 pm (3 years ago)

    I have a new poetry collection almost ready to go to the printers. The poems in it are arranged chronologically and this is the first:

          POEMS

          Poems are near
          naked thoughts: for

          we will not take
          off our clothes since

          we are ashamed
          of our bodies.

          7 January 1979

    I’m not an exhibitionist but then neither would I panic if someone walked in upon me whilst I was undressed. I’ve had to go to the doctor a few times over the years and as soon as the pants go down the poet steps in fascinated by the whole experience; he is, and always has been, an incurable voyeur. In putting it that way I am, of course, suggesting that the need to look at things is something unnatural. I don’t think it necessarily is but, in my experience, it is often disappointing, more often disappointing than not if I’m being honest. And, once seen, nothing can be unseen; it’s a nonsense word. The best you can hope for is you forget and quickly.

    Now that I’m of a certain again finally I can be a little more objective about nudity than I was when young and my libido constantly got in the way. I’m not saying I look upon us all as meat but I’ve stopped equating nakedness with sex. My upbringing has a lot to do with that. I was taught that nakedness was wrong and when you tell a child a thing is wrong it immediately becomes something of interest. Why exactly is it wrong? And that was the thing about nakedness—I could never see why it was so wrong. I could never understand, and I still do not understand, why Adam and Eve saw that they were naked after they first sinned. How could they not know that they were naked? What does ‘naked’ even mean? Do animals think of themselves as naked? Stupid idea. Nakedness only becomes an issue once clothing exists and Adam and Eve invented clothing. But only after they decided—it has to be decided and not simply became aware—that nakedness was in some way a bad thing.

    Nakedness has often been used as a metaphor for truthfulness, the naked truth. Like all metaphors it falls short. But being naked-on-the-outside with someone goes some way towards being able to be naked-on-the-inside with them; that’s the hardest form of exposure. Taking off your clothes is easy by comparison. It’s a benchmark. It’s a way of gauging our normality. Women compare bosoms, men their dicks. An odd way to measure a man (or a woman) but there you go. Montaigne was on the small size. Robert Crumb, the cartoonist, was well endowed as his cartoons of himself show. I’ve always thought of myself as normal but the more penises I run across the less sure I am. Fortunately the older I get the less bothered I am. But we do like to be normal. At the very least. Maybe a bit better than normal, a bit longer, a bit wider. Normal is the same as average and no one wants to be Mr Average even if they find themselves attracted to Miss Average.

    I have written eighteen poems since I was a teenager that contain the words ‘naked’ or ‘nude’. I’d expected more to be honest. Here’s another old one:

          THE SEER

          Once I asked the great man
          why he painted Truth naked.
          "My boy," he smiled, "I like naked women."

          12 September 1988

    There’s a lot more nudity on TV nowadays although I no longer sit slack-jawed when some actor disrobes. That said I do wish some of the sex scenes would fade to grey like they used to. Perhaps because they make me feel old and tired. I don’t know. I can’t pretend I’m not curious through when someone famous takes their clothes off. I don’t know what I’m expecting to see but I’m still interested in seeing. So I guess I’m not dead yet.

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