Steaming ahead

It’s peak panic season. The scammers out in droves and the world is volatile, wars, plagues and pestilence. All those biblical forewarnings that suggest the end is nigh. For some, at least.

Whenever a hacker gets inside my computer or I get a whiff of their approach, I panic. To think of an infection invading the sacred space of my writing world fills me with terror. Makes my heart race.

If only I had a greater understanding of how these things work, I might be less inclined to panic but I am of the generation for whom computers first entered the realms of science fiction, a thing of the future which might never materialise in our lifetime. 

But materialise they have and with a vengeance. 

I can remember the days before mobile phones and email, how after you left your house, unless you called from a phone box somewhere, or had a pager within an institution, you were unable to connect to those you left behind. 

I remember an evening at dinner in a restaurant when one of our group of friends, Henry Ekselman, ever the entrepreneur, produced a brick-shaped contraption. Heavy to hold. A mobile telephone, he told us, and we could use it to ring anyone anywhere. 

In the warm, loud restaurant somewhere in St Kilda, several people experimented, but I only had courage enough to feel its weight in my hands. The hefty lump of technology, doubting it would ever become the thing it has today.

Likewise, I remember another first encounter with another friend, this time from Canberra, Tony Branigan, who moved here to Melbourne with his new partner. One afternoon as we waited for the kettle to boil, Tony offered us a demonstration of their new contraption, a microwave. 

Voila, and to my initial disbelief, Tony reheated some rice from the fridge, cold to steaming hot in two minutes. Again, I could not believe my eyes. 

The world was steaming ahead at such a rate it felt I could never keep up. Today, I am as attached to my phone and computer as the next person. But in the early days of computers, I disregarded them, preferring to write by hand and using snail mail for correspondence. Until one day in my early thirties, after my professional association appointed me as secretary, I realised I would need to learn to type, albeit with two or three fingers – as I still type today – on our one family computer. The one my husband bought for his work and study.

It sat in a corner of our kitchen. I can see him still, beavering away at a legal assignment while our children were small and not much interested in computers. They preferred the television. 

This changed over time to the point they each needed a computer of their own after competition for the family computer avalanched. 

My grandchildren are quick to master the keyboard and mouse from early days. Even as toddlers they know how to get into Netflix and Disney Plus and to work their way around a screen.

When the hackers visit my computer I’m inclined to call on one of my sons in law. One who makes his living inside the bodies of other people’s computers. He programs the stuff that goes into them. He knows how they work, and trouble shoots anything that goes awry. Amazing to watch him behind the scenes in the land of what to me is the gibberish of computer code. I’m one of the fortunate ones with help on tap.

Again, in the earlier days when our children were too small to know much more about computers than us, we called on professional help from New Waves Systems, a technician who spent his life visiting other people’s houses to help them solve their computer problems.

The call for passwords first began for us in the 1990s at Video Easy. When my husband hot footed it down to the new store on the corner of Riversdale and Burke Roads to order a Saturday night video, which we might watch as a family. To sign up he needed a password. A safe set of letters we might easily remember. 

How passwords have changed since then, requiring complex constant reshuffling to keep us safe.

But the passwords to our hearts are not so easy to penetrate. As to our minds, despite the efforts of some to winkle their way inside with the aim of exploiting us in this hideously unequal world. 

Why do scammers to trick you into believing they’re on your side? Why do friendships dissolve? Why do parents abuse their children? Why do we hurt one another? Why?

My poor blog attacked by moths

Every year I notice another hole in another jumper, a discreet hole, and not one caused by carelessness, snagged at a door or a grabbed by a greedy tree branch.

No, these moth holes are neat, as if someone has taken to the jumper with nail scissors and sliced out a tiny section from which the fibres begin to unravel.

This is the work of some other hidden creature who cannot abide my cupboard full of food but will only munch on the finest samples.

There has to be a metaphor in here somehow, but it eludes me, though even, as I say that, I think of my poor blog, attacked by spammers over these past several weeks.

My daughter’s tech-savvy boyfriend is helping me by getting inside the system  to establish what’s going on.

He tells me I have certain corrupt files.

I know not from where they came but once in place some unknown people – I assume they’re people and not robots – have used the space of my blog in which to conduct a scamming enterprise.

I have no idea how any of this happens or how it’s possible. But these gremlins come from France it seems, or so my daughter’s boyfriend tells me, and they use my blog as a means of sending out spam to others.

It scares me.

It makes me hesitant about keeping my blog going. Though I will not shut it down.

My daughter’s boyfriend has enlisted the help of his father, a technology specialist, who will download files to help us eradicate these unsafe files and get them out of my system, so these nefarious types can no longer use the safe appearance of my innocuous blog from which they can run their business of cheating on other people and stealing their money.

Presumably that’s the aim. To steal other people’s money without any of them knowing it’s happened until it’s too late.

It’s strange to be the front of house for such an activity, especially when I had no knowledge of its existence and it’s only the dutiful scouts from Google who picked it up and then warned everyone away from me.

Whenever anyone clicked on my blog, they were warned it was no longer safe.

I try not to take these things personally, but I find I cannot help but feel offended at the idea of being accused of being a danger unto others.

That’s what happens to writers. We write things and before you know it we’re  accused of all sorts of nefarious things that others glean from our writing.

At least this has happened to me.

Even as I write this, a thin wash of paranoia creeps over me as if my enemies might be reading and know  that I am onto them or they might object to me alerting the rest of the world to their existence; the thought police, the censors who tell me I must not write about such and such for fear of upsetting people who do not like my way of representing the world; these thought police who flutter inside my mind, like the moths in my wardrobe and chew holes into my most tender thin skinned confidence.